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wook77I'm just going to be overly emotional here so, err, I flocked this but...
omg. Seriously. I love you guys so very very much there is just no way I can express it sufficiently.
You know how they say that when you're life sucks the most there is always a bright light somewhere? I didn't really believe it, I have to admit. However, I totally have gotten that today from you all.
I, um, am having a complete meltdown in my life. I've recently "broken up" with my best friend. It was an awful way for the friendship to end and it is going to leave quite a few scars.
I've also been working approximately 60 hours a week and my boss is an asshat and my coworker is lazy so I'm basically doing shitloads of work that isn't mine to be doing and they're taking advantage.
I found out that I can't go to Grad School in San Francisco like I wanted because the tuition is too much money and I wouldn't be able to afford it.
Then, the new person that they're hiring to take over for the vacation twat is two levels below me, part time and doesn't require a skill set and is making a buck an hour less than me which is just a slap in the face as far as I'm concerned.
Then, today, I fell down the stairs outside of my office. Any other day I could have laughed it off but, today, it was the final straw. I just sat on those steps and sobbed so hard that I gagged. I finally hit that point where I couldn't say, it will get better. It has too.
Then, I come back to my desk and check in and someone wrote me a gift fic. My first gift fic ever. And it was so nice and well done and beautifully fluffy. So, I started crying again. Because I'm an overly emotional twat. It's based on my now favorite het pairing of EmoGoth!Colin/Bubbly!Parvati at![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-community.gif)
vu_network and it's seriously amazing. It's If You Like Reading Colati" and it's fluffy and w00bie and just gorgeous. Who wouldn't fall in love with this guy?
Then, my afternoon crapped out on me again. Once more, I'm thinking, I've hit rock bottom. Then, I finally head over to that Fandom Love thing and cruise to see who I can leave a comment on since I fangirl so many people and OMG I'm IN THERE AND THERE'S A BUNCH OF COMMENTS AND THEY'RE ALL SO LOVELY and I started crying again. But it was a good crying.
So you all, thank you so much for brightening a craptacular month for me. I'm sorry that I've been cranky and ranty and complaining and whinging. I've been a horrible friend and I haven't been commenting like I wanted and I've been avoiding everyone on the messengers and everything.
omg. Seriously. I love you guys so very very much there is just no way I can express it sufficiently.
You know how they say that when you're life sucks the most there is always a bright light somewhere? I didn't really believe it, I have to admit. However, I totally have gotten that today from you all.
I, um, am having a complete meltdown in my life. I've recently "broken up" with my best friend. It was an awful way for the friendship to end and it is going to leave quite a few scars.
I've also been working approximately 60 hours a week and my boss is an asshat and my coworker is lazy so I'm basically doing shitloads of work that isn't mine to be doing and they're taking advantage.
I found out that I can't go to Grad School in San Francisco like I wanted because the tuition is too much money and I wouldn't be able to afford it.
Then, the new person that they're hiring to take over for the vacation twat is two levels below me, part time and doesn't require a skill set and is making a buck an hour less than me which is just a slap in the face as far as I'm concerned.
Then, today, I fell down the stairs outside of my office. Any other day I could have laughed it off but, today, it was the final straw. I just sat on those steps and sobbed so hard that I gagged. I finally hit that point where I couldn't say, it will get better. It has too.
Then, I come back to my desk and check in and someone wrote me a gift fic. My first gift fic ever. And it was so nice and well done and beautifully fluffy. So, I started crying again. Because I'm an overly emotional twat. It's based on my now favorite het pairing of EmoGoth!Colin/Bubbly!Parvati at
vu_network and it's seriously amazing. It's If You Like Reading Colati" and it's fluffy and w00bie and just gorgeous. Who wouldn't fall in love with this guy?Then, my afternoon crapped out on me again. Once more, I'm thinking, I've hit rock bottom. Then, I finally head over to that Fandom Love thing and cruise to see who I can leave a comment on since I fangirl so many people and OMG I'm IN THERE AND THERE'S A BUNCH OF COMMENTS AND THEY'RE ALL SO LOVELY and I started crying again. But it was a good crying.
So you all, thank you so much for brightening a craptacular month for me. I'm sorry that I've been cranky and ranty and complaining and whinging. I've been a horrible friend and I haven't been commenting like I wanted and I've been avoiding everyone on the messengers and everything.
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Date: 2006-06-23 03:42 am (UTC)I'm really glad I brightened your day. I really meant to do it months ago ;) but I fail at mailing things, writing things or doing most things in a timely manner. I have crappy time management skills which makes me so glad for you all.
I agree that the crying in a car thing (I did that too on the way home)because of course, everything that was going wrong at work was due to me. I'm not normally so overly emotional but just right now, it hit the breaking point.
I like your plan but could I have a Smirnoff Ice or a Diet Coke with a slice of lemon? I like the waffles and the guest room and all that. That would be very very nice.
If you ever want to shout obscenities at the cacti, I live on the border of the reservation so, err, plenty of cactus to shout at. Maybe I'll do that tomorrow morning before I go to work.
I need to start doing yoga again.