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wook77I'm just going to be overly emotional here so, err, I flocked this but...
omg. Seriously. I love you guys so very very much there is just no way I can express it sufficiently.
You know how they say that when you're life sucks the most there is always a bright light somewhere? I didn't really believe it, I have to admit. However, I totally have gotten that today from you all.
I, um, am having a complete meltdown in my life. I've recently "broken up" with my best friend. It was an awful way for the friendship to end and it is going to leave quite a few scars.
I've also been working approximately 60 hours a week and my boss is an asshat and my coworker is lazy so I'm basically doing shitloads of work that isn't mine to be doing and they're taking advantage.
I found out that I can't go to Grad School in San Francisco like I wanted because the tuition is too much money and I wouldn't be able to afford it.
Then, the new person that they're hiring to take over for the vacation twat is two levels below me, part time and doesn't require a skill set and is making a buck an hour less than me which is just a slap in the face as far as I'm concerned.
Then, today, I fell down the stairs outside of my office. Any other day I could have laughed it off but, today, it was the final straw. I just sat on those steps and sobbed so hard that I gagged. I finally hit that point where I couldn't say, it will get better. It has too.
Then, I come back to my desk and check in and someone wrote me a gift fic. My first gift fic ever. And it was so nice and well done and beautifully fluffy. So, I started crying again. Because I'm an overly emotional twat. It's based on my now favorite het pairing of EmoGoth!Colin/Bubbly!Parvati at![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-community.gif)
vu_network and it's seriously amazing. It's If You Like Reading Colati" and it's fluffy and w00bie and just gorgeous. Who wouldn't fall in love with this guy?
Then, my afternoon crapped out on me again. Once more, I'm thinking, I've hit rock bottom. Then, I finally head over to that Fandom Love thing and cruise to see who I can leave a comment on since I fangirl so many people and OMG I'm IN THERE AND THERE'S A BUNCH OF COMMENTS AND THEY'RE ALL SO LOVELY and I started crying again. But it was a good crying.
So you all, thank you so much for brightening a craptacular month for me. I'm sorry that I've been cranky and ranty and complaining and whinging. I've been a horrible friend and I haven't been commenting like I wanted and I've been avoiding everyone on the messengers and everything.
omg. Seriously. I love you guys so very very much there is just no way I can express it sufficiently.
You know how they say that when you're life sucks the most there is always a bright light somewhere? I didn't really believe it, I have to admit. However, I totally have gotten that today from you all.
I, um, am having a complete meltdown in my life. I've recently "broken up" with my best friend. It was an awful way for the friendship to end and it is going to leave quite a few scars.
I've also been working approximately 60 hours a week and my boss is an asshat and my coworker is lazy so I'm basically doing shitloads of work that isn't mine to be doing and they're taking advantage.
I found out that I can't go to Grad School in San Francisco like I wanted because the tuition is too much money and I wouldn't be able to afford it.
Then, the new person that they're hiring to take over for the vacation twat is two levels below me, part time and doesn't require a skill set and is making a buck an hour less than me which is just a slap in the face as far as I'm concerned.
Then, today, I fell down the stairs outside of my office. Any other day I could have laughed it off but, today, it was the final straw. I just sat on those steps and sobbed so hard that I gagged. I finally hit that point where I couldn't say, it will get better. It has too.
Then, I come back to my desk and check in and someone wrote me a gift fic. My first gift fic ever. And it was so nice and well done and beautifully fluffy. So, I started crying again. Because I'm an overly emotional twat. It's based on my now favorite het pairing of EmoGoth!Colin/Bubbly!Parvati at
vu_network and it's seriously amazing. It's If You Like Reading Colati" and it's fluffy and w00bie and just gorgeous. Who wouldn't fall in love with this guy?Then, my afternoon crapped out on me again. Once more, I'm thinking, I've hit rock bottom. Then, I finally head over to that Fandom Love thing and cruise to see who I can leave a comment on since I fangirl so many people and OMG I'm IN THERE AND THERE'S A BUNCH OF COMMENTS AND THEY'RE ALL SO LOVELY and I started crying again. But it was a good crying.
So you all, thank you so much for brightening a craptacular month for me. I'm sorry that I've been cranky and ranty and complaining and whinging. I've been a horrible friend and I haven't been commenting like I wanted and I've been avoiding everyone on the messengers and everything.
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Date: 2006-06-23 01:39 am (UTC)Yeah, "breaking up" with a friend is so much harder than a boyfriend. It's been bubbling for awhile but it just reached a point where I had to end it to keep me from going insane.
The work thing sucks and has been going on for a month. Plus, my boss has been interviewing but hasn't liked anyone yet so we're still looking. So, at least another two weeks of all this work. It couldn't happen at a worse time since I have so many writing commitments and stuffs.
The fandom love thing is amazing! There are just so many people to fangirl. I'll take the compliment-things and run away with them. They make me feel very good right about now :).
It's so nice having you back! You're such an awesome friend! and omg, your icon! YOU USED A WEDGE ICON!!!!!! BWEEEEEEEE!
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Date: 2006-06-23 02:53 am (UTC)By the way (watch how I casually drop this in), just the other day I figured out how to best do the header image things for you (yes, I was sitting on it because first I was busy, then injured, then dissatisfied with how it looked). I have found out that with the flexible squares layout, there exists code to let you have HEADERS THAT CHANGE ON REFRESHING. So each fandom can have its own header, and when you refresh, BOOM NEW HEADER. So, uh, it means I have to start all over, but I think it'll be way cool. And since this took (is taking) so long and I have suddenly decided you need more code so it's supersweet, if the original person lined up to do the layout isn't available I'll do it. Unless, of course, you'd rather have all the fandoms on one header.
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Date: 2006-06-23 03:32 am (UTC)The friend that was doing my layout is super busy right now so she can't get to it for awhile so if you want to do the codes too, I will love you forever.