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[wook77]

I've been staring at this update journal screen for about an hour and the rant/introspection/everything that I had thought of while at the gym just doesn't fit anymore.

It happened, people keep trying to spin it to benefit themselves and there's not a fucking thing I can do about it. I've not turned on the television today because I don't want to see that image that's already burned into my head over and over and over. I'm just ignoring what the date is.

Instead of ranting or anything about today, I'm going to post semi-good news. I've lost another pound. Ever since I stopped denying myself ice cream, I've been losing weight. Go figure. Also - my arms are exhausted but not in pain. That's a nice feeling.

What's not a nice feeling? I needed a spot for this shoulder-pressing thingy and what weight did I have it at? 10 frikken pounds. I'm such a weakling.

I saw muscle in my forearm and biceps today. That made me happy. I actually grinned at it and flexed to see it again. Yeah, I'm a dork.

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It doesn't happen all that often, actually. I love music and use it to reinforce my mood but it doesn't normally make me feel something that wasn't already apparent... if that makes sense.

But thanks! YEah, I was all dumb at the gym with my muscle.