wook77: (star trek: mccoy supports kirk)
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Title: The Lengths We Go To
Author: [livejournal.com profile] wook77
Pairing: Kirk/McCoy
Rating: PG
Wordcount: ~1500
Warnings: Modern Day AU
Summary: McCoy loves Joanna. Jim loves McCoy. Rita's gotta go.
A/N: Because I am a big, big failure at deadlines, this is unbeta'd. Written for [livejournal.com profile] space_wrapped and prompt #77: A Retelling of the Gift of the Magi.



There's not much that Jim wouldn't do for Bones and there's plenty that he wants for Bones. He wants a better place to live, one that's not in the middle of trailers that either contain meth labs, hookers or hookers cooking meth. And that's not counting the sex offenders, the pimps and the illegal immigrants from so many countries that Jim's learning new ways of saying "fuck you" every day. It's one phrase that doesn't need translating but it comes in handy whenever some bill collector comes banging on the door of their trailer looking for payment.

He wants Bones to get his medical license back. Jim wants that so bad that he wishes, every once in awhile, that Bones had never met him, had never treated him when he'd been broken and left for dead on the street, had never put his license at risk by not reporting Jim's gunshot wounds when Jim had begged him not to report them. He wants Bones to be back to that doctor that had treated him with a growl, a smile with just a hint of bitterness around the edges and righteousness throughout.

He wants Bones to get his smile back. He wants Bones to trust the world again, to trust that doing the right thing will win out in the end.

He wants Bones to be able to afford to go to Georgia to visit his daughter, the one that he tells Jim about while they're sleeping on the lumpy mattress on the floor of the tiny trailer that's barely big enough for a stove and a shower. He wants this more than anything else because this is something that Jim can do for Bones.

It's just that they have, between them, twenty-six dollars and eighty-one cents. It's not enough to pay the rent on their shithole next month. It's not enough to keep the heat on. It's definitely not enough to get a Greyhound to Georgia all the way from Des Moines. The worst part is that that twenty-six dollars and eighty-one cents is after Jim's donated his monthly allotments of plasma and sperm at the various facilities.

Jim wants to howl and rage, throw things around while he has a breakdown over the fact that the man who has given up everything to be with Jim will celebrate Christmas with nothing. There's no money for a tree, or the lights to go on it let alone ornaments. There's no Christmas ham like Jim remembers from one of the foster homes he'd lived in when his dad died and his mum had fled into the military, leaving Jim and his brother behind to pick up the remnants. The need to rage and throw and scream is so strong that the yell is out his mouth before he thinks about it. His hand is wrapped around Bones's antique stethoscope, the one that his great great great grandpappy had given to his son who had passed it to his son and so on until it had ended up in Bones's hands. He's just about to launch it across the room when his eyes focus on the glittering candle in the window.

It wouldn't work.

It had to work.

He's James T. Kirk. It'll work.

He carefully sets the stethoscope down and then grabs his keys and his coat before scooping the strap of the carrying case off the sofa. Unquestioning of the plan, he's in his beat-up twenty-year-old clunker with the hood held down by duct tape and a cleverly placed screw. He can get his hands on another guitar. He can't possibly replace Bones.

The pawn shop owner knows Jim on sight. It's not something that he cares to reflect on, especially not right now as he hands over his girl, his best and brightest hope for getting the fuck out of Des Moines. The asshole strings Jim along, hemming and hawing over the guitar and its little nicks and bruises from years of loving care. Bastard's trying to cheat him and Jim knows it. What's more, the bastard knows that Jim knows that he's about to be cheated.

"You don't want the guitar, I can always call Sammy," Jim says studiously offhandedly. And, just like that, the owner's a bit less reticent about taking the guitar and a bit more generous with his funds. There aren't many people here that wouldn't react to the name of Jim's brother and the current ruler of Des Moines's drug world. No one needs to know that Jim hasn't talked to Sam since he'd been shot that last time and Bones had tossed his career away for Jim. If Bones can toss out his career for Jim, Jim could damned well toss out his older brother.

"Pleasure doing business with you." Jim gives a jaunty wave as he pats the pocket of his shirt before sauntering out of the pawn shop. With the seven hundred dollars burning a hole in said pocket, he wonders if he should buy a plane ticket rather than a bus ticket for Bones. Maybe he should just let Bones decide. Just as quickly as the thought scampers through his head, he nixes it. Bones would want to spend the money on the past due electric bill or new tires for Jim's van or any of a thousand different necessities.

It's Christmas. It's not the time for necessities. It's the time for frivolous trips to see a daughter that Jim knows Bones misses more than anything else in the world. It's a short trip from the pawn shop to the bus station and Jim gets Bones a ticket to Atlanta. He pockets the rest of the cash for those necessities that Bones will bitch about as he takes his gift.

If he hurries, he's got just enough time to get home, pack a suitcase for Bones and then drive him to the bus station. Jim doesn't think about the fact that the ticket is only one way. Instead, he concentrates on the way that he'll spill the surprise to Bones, the way that Bones will light up, curse words flying out of his mouth as he hides his happiness behind bitter sarcasm. Christmas with his daughter is the greatest gift that Jim can give Bones. It's the closest he'll get to getting Bones his life back.

He's barely pulled the suitcase from the small closet in the larger closet that masquerades as their bedroom when Bones gets home. Taking a deep breath and focusing on Bones's joy for Christmas with Joanna, Jim packs Bones's favorite clothes and then lugs it into the other room.

"What's this?" Bones asks as Jim hauls the suitcase the rest of the way.

"You're going on a trip."

"Huh?"

Jim sets the suitcase down, grabs the bus ticket and forces a bright, happy smile. As he hands over the ticket, he says, "Happy Christmas, Bones."

"What's this?" Bones looks at the envelope and then back at Jim before glancing at the suitcase and then back to Jim once more.

"I bought you a ticket to Atlanta. Christmas with your daughter, Bones. My gift to you," Jim says and sees the way that Bones's lips open, the way his face twists and Jim knows exactly what's about to spill out. "And don't worry about the cost. I already paid the electric and the rent. I even bought groceries. Just take the ticket."

"You go back to work for your brother?"

"No."

"Then where'd you get the money for all this?"

"None of your business."

"Jim."

It's all Bones has to say. Between that and the look that says "tell me before I assume the worst", Jim's confession pours out of him. "I wanted to get you something good for Christmas so I sold Rita."

"You sold Rita? Jim, you love her."

"I love you, you love Joanna. Ipso facto, Rita had to go."

"Jim."

"You gave up everything for me. Why wouldn't I give up a stupid, fucking guitar for you?"

"Because that guitar was your dad's. Because that guitar was your ticket to getting the hell out of this trailer park and into better things? Because you…"

"Because I sold my soul and yours along with it for that guitar?"

"Jim, it's not like that." Bones crosses the room and embraces Jim, hugs him tight enough that Jim doesn't bother trying to escape, he's too busy feeling safe.

"What's it like then if it isn't that I worked for Sammy and brought you down to our level? You already gave me the best thing ever. I just wanted to give you something, too."

"Jim." This time, Jim hears all sorts of promises and explanations in his name. "It'll work out."

The rumble of a train through the trainyard sounds and Jim startles. "You're going to be late to the station."

"Gotta get you a ticket, too."

"But – "

"But nothing. Come on, I'll introduce you to my daughter."

As Always, I'd love to hear what you thought.

Date: 2010-12-10 11:35 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] bandearg-rois.livejournal.com
oh this was sosososososo cute! Dark, but cute. And yes, my brain thinks this kind of background for them is 'cute'.... I'm just gonna go eat a sandwich.

Date: 2011-01-10 04:23 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] wook77.livejournal.com
Hee, I have the same reaction! I thought it was rather cute, too. Depressing but cute :D

I appreciate your kind words! <3

Date: 2010-12-10 11:48 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] shygryf.livejournal.com
awwww so aweet and sad and dark and lovely!

Date: 2011-01-10 04:24 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] wook77.livejournal.com
Danke! That's exactly what I was going for!

Date: 2010-12-11 12:04 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] treksnoopy.livejournal.com
I'm sure things will be better in Georgia for them! Two one way tickets!
*shamlessly hopes*

Date: 2011-01-10 04:24 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] wook77.livejournal.com
Hee! I hope it goes better for them, as well. Boys deserve some happiness.

I appreciate your kind words!

Date: 2010-12-11 12:37 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] sail-aweigh.livejournal.com
Oh, lovely! The backstory you came up with is fascinating, you were able to really sink us into it with so few words. These boys are love.

Date: 2011-01-10 04:25 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] wook77.livejournal.com
Thanks so much! I've really been working on being less verbose in my writing so your comment is especially heartening and even more appreciated!

Date: 2010-12-11 01:15 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] ofsoapsuds.livejournal.com
Oh that is so cute! I think I might go cry now cause it's so good =)

Date: 2011-01-10 04:25 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] wook77.livejournal.com
Thanks so much! I'm glad that this resonated for you so much!

Date: 2010-12-11 01:31 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] akuchan-47.livejournal.com
I hope things will get better for them in Georgia! This was all kinds of sad and achey and just lovely.

Date: 2011-01-10 04:26 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] wook77.livejournal.com
Me, too. <3

I'm so glad that you enjoyed!

Date: 2010-12-11 01:42 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] elanorofcastile.livejournal.com
Still love this so much! So excellently dark and dirty. Love. It.

Date: 2011-01-10 04:26 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] wook77.livejournal.com
Oh you. You only like it cause I reference the trailer park :P:P:P:P:P:P:P:P:P:P:P:P:P:P:P

Date: 2011-01-10 05:08 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] elanorofcastile.livejournal.com
Heh heh heh, you know me well, Obi Wan ;) :P :P :P

Date: 2010-12-11 02:37 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] writer-klmeri.livejournal.com
I love a good down-and-depressing-yet-hopeful fic. So very good!! :) Thank you!

Date: 2011-01-10 04:27 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] wook77.livejournal.com
Thanks so much! I'm very glad that you enjoyed and I thank you for letting me know what you thought!

Date: 2010-12-11 03:45 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] abigail89.livejournal.com
Wonderful! In that totally depressed, but it's getting better way :D.

Thanks so much for participating!

Date: 2011-01-10 04:30 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] wook77.livejournal.com
Thanks so much for working with me on participating since I failed at signing up properly and promptly. You guys are awesome mods!

I'm very glad that you enjoyed!

Date: 2010-12-11 04:44 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] secretsolitaire.livejournal.com
I have hope that better things await them in Georgia. Lovely fic. *hugs Jim*

Date: 2011-01-10 04:30 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] wook77.livejournal.com
Me too <3

I'm very glad that you enjoyed. Thanks so much!

Date: 2010-12-11 10:06 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] zauzat.livejournal.com
Lovely. Sweet and sad.

Date: 2011-01-10 04:30 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] wook77.livejournal.com
Thanks so much for your kind words. I also adore your icon.

Date: 2010-12-13 05:03 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] joirerson.livejournal.com
Oh, this hurt in the best ways. Beautifully done!!

Date: 2011-01-10 04:31 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] wook77.livejournal.com
Thanks for your kind words! The hurts so good was exactly what i was hoping to accomplish!

Date: 2010-12-13 05:26 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] canis-takahari.livejournal.com
This was wonderful! Hopeful and sweet. Jim giving up Rita for Bones without a second thought is just lovely.

Date: 2011-01-10 04:32 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] wook77.livejournal.com
I'm so glad that you enjoyed! Poor Rita. I have this huge backstory about Rita that I might have to write out someday.

Date: 2010-12-14 02:48 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] blcwriter.livejournal.com
You know this just begs for a sequel. Damn, this was achy and gorgeous.

Date: 2011-01-10 04:33 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] wook77.livejournal.com
It sort of does, doesn't it? I have a prequel in mind right now but my brain's been too fixated on healing for me to even think of writing lately. I miss it liekwhoa.

I appreciate your kind words <3<3<3 also, I hope you are well!

Date: 2011-01-10 01:48 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] blcwriter.livejournal.com
my brain's been too fixated on healing for me to even think of writing lately. I miss it liekwhoa.

Well- heal first, write better later!

also, getting there, thanks! <3333

Date: 2010-12-15 05:49 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] sangueuk.livejournal.com
Jim will always work to get Bones what he needs - thank you for your sweet ficlet!

Date: 2011-01-10 04:33 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] wook77.livejournal.com
Exactly!

I appreciate your kind words <3

Date: 2010-12-15 09:20 pm (UTC)
ext_15529: made by jazsekuhsjunk (me - santa hat worm)
From: [identity profile] the-dala.livejournal.com
Oh, this was so complex! Lovely.

Date: 2011-01-10 04:35 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] wook77.livejournal.com
I'm very glad that you enjoyed!

Date: 2010-12-15 11:08 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] pomme-noir.livejournal.com
It hurt that Jim had to sell something so precious, but knowing he did it for Bones made it alright.

Date: 2011-01-10 04:35 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] wook77.livejournal.com
Exactly :D Poor Jim but he did it for a very noble cause.

I appreciate that you let me know what you thought!

Date: 2010-12-23 10:27 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] givemefever.livejournal.com
I was so touched by Jim's selflessness. I'm glad they got to visit Bones' family.

Date: 2011-01-10 04:37 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] wook77.livejournal.com
It really was an amazing act for Jim to give up Rita for Bones.

I appreciate that you let me know what you thought!

Date: 2010-12-29 11:12 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] weepingnaiad.livejournal.com
I adored Jim's desire to give them a chance at a better life, even if he had to give up something that meant so much to him. It was bleak and said, but hopeful, in my mind!

Lovely!

Date: 2011-01-10 04:41 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] wook77.livejournal.com
Thanks so much for your kind words. that "bleak and sad but hopeful" is exactly what I was hoping would come through.

<3

(btw - I love your snowing icon!)

Date: 2011-01-10 05:41 am (UTC)
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From: [identity profile] caitri.livejournal.com
D'aww!!!! This is very sweet!

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