New Fic - Childhood's Over (PG-13)
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I've written a quick one-shot for the AWDT Challenge over at
jamie2109's journal. AWDT is sponsored by
jamie2109 and
nocturnali. This week's prompt was "we're all going to die". So, I present you my quick ficlet. I'm not sure about it as it's not quite what I wanted. It's also 1st Person, as a bit of warning.
So, without further ado... here are the details and the fic.
Title: Childhood's Over
Rating: PG-13
Pairing: H/D
Word Count: 396
Warnings: Angst, mentions of death (no one actually dies in it, honest. Also, this has a happy-ish ending)
Summary: Childhood's over the the moment you know you're going to die. (From the Crow). Draco reflects on his childhood.
A/N: Inspiration for this fic comes from the above quotation. If I have time, I may write one of these from Harry's POV (hopefully it'll be even better).
I was forced to watch a Muggle movie with Harry. The movie was quite good, although I shall never admit it to him. I don’t remember much, I spent most of the movie attempting to seduce Potter, but I do remember one line.
Childhood's over the moment you know that you're going to die.
That line has haunted me for weeks. I’ve gone over it in my head thousands and millions of times. What does it mean? What does it mean for Harry? What does it mean for me?
For Harry, his childhood was over when he faced Voldemort for the first time and watched his mother die protecting him. For me, my childhood ended when I met Voldemort for the first time. He had to be the ugliest fucker I’ve ever seen. My skin crawled as I was forced to kneel and accept the task of murdering Albus Dumbledore.
I knew, then, that I was going to die. We’re all going to die. As I bowed and accepted the task, my mother stood in a circle of Death Eaters, wands pointed at her head and chest. As I bowed, Voldemort touched the back of my neck and a shiver of fear and revulsion raced through my body.
I may have accepted my own mortality and that of everyone, but I couldn’t become a murderer. Albus Dumbledore was smarter than I, much more observant than I. It shocked me to realize that this man, the man I’d had very little interaction with, knew me better than I knew myself. I was ashamed that my wand shook and dropped at the time. Now, however, I’m proud. I’m proud of the fact that I couldn’t kill a brave man in cold blood.
I may have been a Death Eater, I may have set in motion the first invasion of Hogwarts of the Second War, I may have betrayed my family and my blood but I’m not a murderer. That comforts me in the quiet hours of the dawn when Harry isn’t around to hold me as I shake from the nightmares. That reassures me when I feel unworthy of the love of the Saviour. That consoles me as I sob in isolation for the friends that have died. That relieves me as I confront my own mortality.
We’re all going to die but, thankfully, not at my hand.
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So, without further ado... here are the details and the fic.
Title: Childhood's Over
Rating: PG-13
Pairing: H/D
Word Count: 396
Warnings: Angst, mentions of death (no one actually dies in it, honest. Also, this has a happy-ish ending)
Summary: Childhood's over the the moment you know you're going to die. (From the Crow). Draco reflects on his childhood.
A/N: Inspiration for this fic comes from the above quotation. If I have time, I may write one of these from Harry's POV (hopefully it'll be even better).
I was forced to watch a Muggle movie with Harry. The movie was quite good, although I shall never admit it to him. I don’t remember much, I spent most of the movie attempting to seduce Potter, but I do remember one line.
Childhood's over the moment you know that you're going to die.
That line has haunted me for weeks. I’ve gone over it in my head thousands and millions of times. What does it mean? What does it mean for Harry? What does it mean for me?
For Harry, his childhood was over when he faced Voldemort for the first time and watched his mother die protecting him. For me, my childhood ended when I met Voldemort for the first time. He had to be the ugliest fucker I’ve ever seen. My skin crawled as I was forced to kneel and accept the task of murdering Albus Dumbledore.
I knew, then, that I was going to die. We’re all going to die. As I bowed and accepted the task, my mother stood in a circle of Death Eaters, wands pointed at her head and chest. As I bowed, Voldemort touched the back of my neck and a shiver of fear and revulsion raced through my body.
I may have accepted my own mortality and that of everyone, but I couldn’t become a murderer. Albus Dumbledore was smarter than I, much more observant than I. It shocked me to realize that this man, the man I’d had very little interaction with, knew me better than I knew myself. I was ashamed that my wand shook and dropped at the time. Now, however, I’m proud. I’m proud of the fact that I couldn’t kill a brave man in cold blood.
I may have been a Death Eater, I may have set in motion the first invasion of Hogwarts of the Second War, I may have betrayed my family and my blood but I’m not a murderer. That comforts me in the quiet hours of the dawn when Harry isn’t around to hold me as I shake from the nightmares. That reassures me when I feel unworthy of the love of the Saviour. That consoles me as I sob in isolation for the friends that have died. That relieves me as I confront my own mortality.
We’re all going to die but, thankfully, not at my hand.
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Date: 2005-10-13 01:50 am (UTC)Well done.
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Date: 2005-10-13 04:08 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-10-13 04:18 am (UTC)sorry about the bad day. *chocolate?*
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Date: 2005-10-13 04:22 am (UTC)I'm glad it's reading different for ya...I won't tweak it then ;)
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Date: 2005-10-13 04:23 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-10-13 03:09 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-10-13 02:19 am (UTC)What do you mean, it's not quite what you wanted?
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Date: 2005-10-13 03:52 am (UTC)That line has always haunted me... it's my favorite line from The Crow, which has a million great lines.
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Date: 2005-10-13 04:06 am (UTC)Nice icon :D
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Date: 2005-10-13 04:26 am (UTC)Yeah, I really didn't want anyone else in the story... too many emotions and people flitting around for a quick one-shot. You're right, it does sound a bit like a journal entry... Draco has always struck me as an analytical person (even if his plans to get Harry leave alot to be desired)... so maybe a good feel to it after all.
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Date: 2005-10-13 04:41 am (UTC)I'm glad you're using the icon! *loves* That's funny that your friend thought it looked like you. Hee. :)
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Date: 2005-10-13 03:54 am (UTC)being the hopeless romantic that i am, i obviously love that harry is there to comfort draco, at least some of the time.
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Date: 2005-10-13 04:00 am (UTC)Thanks for the wonderful comments!
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Date: 2005-10-13 04:43 am (UTC)Amen!
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Date: 2005-10-13 05:39 am (UTC)The film haunted me for weeks due to the tragedy of the plot and Brandon Lee. *sniffles*
Loved your take on the prompt, the power of the last paragraph is superb. Of course Draco deserves the love of the 'saviour', no one else comes even close to being enough for Harry.
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Date: 2005-10-13 03:07 pm (UTC)I'll agree with you... there is simply no one good enough for harry other than draco.
The last bit is my favorite part, so I'm super glad you liked it!
BTW, much icon love....mmmm, pornstar harry.
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Date: 2005-10-13 04:17 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-10-13 05:41 pm (UTC)He is quite yummy. mmmmmmm
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Date: 2005-10-13 07:59 pm (UTC)no subject
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Date: 2005-10-13 08:31 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-10-13 03:08 pm (UTC)But, I'm super happy and shall now commence the dance of joy, pardon the broken plates.
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Date: 2005-10-13 11:15 pm (UTC)Yay, happy!dance!
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Date: 2005-10-13 04:34 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-10-13 05:42 pm (UTC)I'm glad you enjoyed! You make me smile! (well, you and your icon ;) )
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Date: 2005-10-16 06:39 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-10-18 05:34 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-10-17 05:20 am (UTC)Sorry you've had a bad day. Hope it gets better. No, scratch that. It will get better!
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Date: 2005-10-18 05:36 am (UTC)At first, he might be ashamed of his inability but I think after really contemplating his life, he'd eventually be proud of the fact that he couldn't kill an unarmed man,I would be.
My life has gotten pretty good (my boss is on vacation and ALL my office mates are out sick so I have the office all to myself, w00t!)
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Date: 2005-10-17 03:05 pm (UTC)And I wonder if...
Guess we'll find out next book, huh?
Thank you.
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Date: 2005-10-18 05:37 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-10-17 07:55 pm (UTC)This one will stay with me, I think.
Thanks for writing it.
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Date: 2005-10-18 05:38 am (UTC)I'm so glad you liked it! Staying with you, squee!
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Date: 2005-10-19 06:50 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-10-17 11:51 pm (UTC)Gloriousgentry
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Date: 2005-10-18 05:41 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-10-19 01:58 am (UTC)Gloriousgentry
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