Fic - Musings (KOTOR) Rating:PG

[wook77]

The following is my proposed entry for 1character. The premise is that you have fifty prompts and you write one sentence for each prompt. This is KOTOR (Knights of the Old Republic-centric).


For those on my flist that don't know much about KOTOR, it's basically a story of a redeemed Jedi Knight. You can play male or female. If you play female, you can fall in love with Carth Onasi *points to icon* and really... who wouldn't want to fall in love with him???? So, yeah, that's the quick quick version of KOTOR...


Title: Musings
Fandom: Star Wars (Knights of the Old Republic)
Character: Carth Onasi
Theme set: Epsilon
Disclaimer: Not mine, never has been, never will be. All copywrited characters, scenes, etc belong to Lucasarts and associated businesses.
Rating: PG



#01 - Hood
I should have known, should have realized, when she pulled the hood over her face that Revan was alive, well and residing in my heart.

#02 – Buzz
The electrical buzz and hum of the lightsaber brought home to me how unreachable they all were and how very alone I was.

#03 – Wish
Wishes were for those that hadn't eviscerated their lives, wishes weren't for me.

#04 – Seasons
There are no seasons in space, no falling leaves raining down into a sheltered glen, no snow to catch in long hair, no budding flowers to pick and no warm nights to curl into.

#05 – Threat
Ordo was a threat to me, my team and my survival; I didn't want to admit that he was also a threat to my heart's secret wish for Revan.

#06 – Portrait
The crew of the Ebon Hawk smiled and waved within the portrait holo I had sitting on my desk; I refused to look at it until my eyes finally couldn't resist its siren call.

#07 – Loud
Zaalbar's roar was loud, its earsplitting decibels mirrored the pain I felt when she left.

#08 – Energy
As Mission bounded in front of us, I longed for the energy of youth while trying to ignore my memory of it.

#09 – Purge
The death of Saul Karath purged the last of my bitterness or at least I thought it had.

#10 – Mouse
The small cleaning device made a sqeaking noise that was slowly driving me insane as it denied me the opportunity to sleep.

#11 – Attic
I'd pushed my memories of Morgana into the attic of my mind, I didn't expect a cocky smuggler to open the door.

#12 – Second-Rate
As Dustil hissed and spit at me on Korriban, I felt like a second-rate father, was there something else I could have done?

#13 – Dash
Why Mission and Bastila felt the need for a dash through the shops of Manaan, I will never understand.

#14 – Attitude
Mission's attitude was too close to Dustil's; that casual disregard for their own mortality, that cocky disrespect for authority and that challenging impertitent tone all brought back memories I didn't want.

#15 – Wisdom
I can only hope that Mission starts listening to the wisdom that comes with age.

#16 – Sight
The sight of the Mandalorian and Mission speaking made me want to intercede and tell Mission about what evil truly was.

#17 – Address
The public address on the Rakatan homeworld made me shudder; what were they thinking broadcasting our private business this way?

#18 – Minute
It only took a minute for my life to change, a minute that stretched on for eternity.

#19 – Cotton
As we all stood in our cotton underwear, I couldn't help but stare at my two companions and hope that mine were as clean.

#20 – Claw
Despair clawed at my heart while I held Morgana and felt her slipping away from me.

#21 – Limit
The sky was the limit as we kissed on the sandy beach while the others laughed.

#22 – Unique
As I counted toes and fingers, I knew that my son was unique any other baby ever born.

#23 – Gravity
The gravity of the Rakatan world upset my sense of balance and I barely avoided the swipe of a rancor's fist.

#24 – Yesterday
Yesterday, she was a bright light in my life and today, she is everything I hate.

#25 – Jungle
The jungles of Telos, the towering trees and thick underbrush always seemed to haunt my dreams and my nightmares.

#26 – Garden
In Davik's garden, I felt jealousy start to gnaw at my soul as I listened to their laughter.

#27 – Question
When I pulled her out of the escape pod, there was no question in my mind but now…

#28 – Text
As I stared at the text on the paper in front of me, I hoped my companion would soon wake, Taris was not a friendly world any longer.

#29 – Plastic
One more time of being called "meatbag" and HK-47 would quickly find his metal parts replaced with plastic.

#30 - Block
I tried to block my feelings, block the fear and the love but I failed and I'm glad that I did.

#31 – Escort
It chafed to be considered her "pleasure escort" as we walked around Korriban; why couldn't the Mandalorian be the pleasure escort and I the bodyguard?

#32 – Insult
When she called me a Gamorrean pigman, my laughter was genuine for the first time in years.

#33 – Blood
I still have the blood of Telos on my hands, I see it every time I look at them and the sight makes me ill.

#34 – Gold
The golden sunset of the dual suns on Tatooine bathed the sand in a cascade of color as we watched (the hunter) struggle with his droids.

#35 – Spot
There was an invisible spot on her robe that I casually brushed my hand against, just for the feel of her against me.

#36 – Melt
As I watched the snow melting near the polar cap of the reborn Telos, I felt tears prickle against my lids.

#37 – Guilt
The guilt gnawed at my soul, I'd been too trusting, too late, too little, too insignificant to save them.

#38 – Duel
The sounds of dueling echoed as I battered myself against the door, trying to get in there to save her from herself.

#39 - Stranger
I told her I was falling in love with her a few days ago but now, she's a stranger to me and my heart is breaking.

#40 – Wait
Waiting is the hardest thing for me, how long must I wait for her to come back?

#41 – Glow
Pregnancy lent a glow to Morgana as we celebrated our great good fortune.

#42 – Action
Actions speak louder than words, I can only hope she is listening to them as I wait for her to forgive me.

#43 – Chain
I feel chained to my past, fear keeps my feet still while distrust taints my words.

#44 – Bitter
I tried not to be bitter but how can a man resist its siren call when he stares at the crushed remains of his life?

#45 - Lock
As I watched her make her way through the Endar Spire, she picked locks with an alacrity that shocked and intrigued me.

#46 – Order
Her orders were simple, safeguard the Republic until she came back and that's what I've done for all these years.

#47 – Friends
We started out as a rag-tag band and we ended friends but Canderous' friendship was the most shocking.

#48 – Prison
Standing behind the containment field, I hoped that rescue would come and we wouldn't be in this prison for long.

#49 – Journal
When she left, I found her journal and I am unashamed to admit that I cried.

#50 – Zero
The zero mark of Hyperspace travel was always scary and exhilarating as we rode the path I'd programmed.

what do you all think?


Finally - as a forewarning to those on my flist that are only HP-centric (i.e. - not kotor nerds such as myself), I will gradually be posting my large KOTOR WiP here. This does NOT mean that I'm leaving HP and/or ignoring it. I've just rediscovered my love of KOTOR and Star Wars.

Comments

[albur.livejournal.com]

Gah!!! Would you mind telling me how you produced that so damn quickly while its taking me forever to simply finish just one?

Very very good. I never really thought to do the themes using 'I' as first person. I loved all of them. Well done.

[wook77.livejournal.com]

I, err, just downloaded teh list around lunchtime and started writing.

I've been writing KOTOR all day though, so that might be part of it as well...

Am re-writing parts of "What Dreams May Come" and trying frantically to bring it back to where I wanted it.

[akakat.livejournal.com]

That's so great. I love how each sentence tells its own little story. My favorite is #43 – "distrust taints my words" is a fantastic turn of phrase.

[wook77.livejournal.com]

Thanks! I'm glad you enjoyed!

[ocarina.livejournal.com]

Amazing. I can;t imagine how hard it is to come up with just a sentence to capture so much and NOT come off like the superdictionary (http://community.livejournal.com/scans_daily/1596539.html#cutid1).

#19 was hilarious, too! And I loved #24 especially.

Gets my Carth icon sign of approval! =D

[wook77.livejournal.com]

I'm very glad you liked them. It was fairly hard not to have a million semi-colons and run-on sentences. I had to cut down what I wanted to say and that was quite a challenge.

I'm so glad you liked those two especially. #19 made me giggle. That was my first thought in the game when we got to that part.

*happy dance* for Carth icon sign of approval!

[sawritings.livejournal.com]

Very nice! Inspired by your posts at KFM to give this a try myself.

[wook77.livejournal.com]

Oh awesome! What was your claim?

I'm psyched to see what you write!

[sawritings.livejournal.com]

I actually haven't made an official one yet, but it would probably be for an original character. I'm in the process of doing the 1sentence one right now. :D