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wook77 ([personal profile] wook77) wrote2009-06-17 07:19 am

fic: Lubalu, Too (Star Trek: Kirk/Bones Rated: R)

Title: Lubalu, Too
Author: [livejournal.com profile] wook77
Fandom: Star Trek XI
Pairing: Kirk/Bones
Rating: R
Warnings: None
Wordcount: ~1200
Summary: The five times Kirk almost says "I love you" to Bones and the first time he finally does.
A/N: Written for the prompt from the summary given to me by [livejournal.com profile] inell. Unbeta'd.

1.) He's drunk and he's known McCoy for all of five days when he decides he loves McCoy. "Lubalu, m'bones." Bones merely pats him on the head like he's a particularly good dog. In retribution, he licks Bones's face.

2.) He's got Harrison bent in half as he fucks the man hard. Harrison's the best fuck he's ever had. He's Southern, for one thing. For another, he's got full, fuckable lips. For a third, he's got this hair that flops just right. For a fourth, he's got expressive and thick eyebrows. For a fifth, he's got the best cock ever. It's not his fault, then, that as he comes, he pants out, "Bones, fuck, Bones, I love – " and then catches himself. "I love your bones," he finishes lamely. Harrison seems to buy it, though.

3.) He keeps going and going, running on sheer adrenaline and nerves after the Narada. There are too many things that have to be seen to. Bones catches him as he walks in to the medbay to check on Pike. The hypospray comes out of nowhere, it's in his neck before he realizes and he hears Bones mutter, "for your own good, Jim." He tries to respond "love you, too" but the sedative takes effect too quickly. He's out like a light and doesn't even get the pleasure of feeling Bones carry him to a bed, tuck him in and kiss him on the forehead. He doesn't get to see the way that Pike takes it all in, either.

4.) He's in the middle of an interrogation torture session. His brain doesn't want to believe him but his heart is telling him that there's no way that Bones would be doing this to him, no way that he would be wielding the scalpel this way while demanding information.

"Captain James T Kirk, Captain of the USS Enterprise, NCC-1701," he says in response to another try to get information out of him. Jim is in so much pain that he can't remember what they want, can't hear the questions over the sound of his pulse in his ears. He hears the muted murmur of the voice again and he answers with the standard answer, "Captain James T Kirk, Captain of the USS Enterprise, NCC-1701." He keeps repeating himself as the alien (not Bones, Bones wouldn't do this no matter what his eyes swear they're seeing and his ears swear they're hearing) cuts into his thigh. He can't help screaming his answer this time.

The aliens must've decided on another track because Bones's voice is much more gentle the next time he surfaces. "Jim?" he hears the alien ask in Bones's voice. He'll have to tell the cultural sciences people about the way they can influence their victims to experience their loved ones as the torturers. He's certain that at least one of the officers can make a report on it. The thought distracts from the way that the alien Bones is currently poking lightly at his injuries.

There's still pain (oh god is there still pain) but there's also so much gentleness. If the aliens had tried this ages ago, he probably would've given them everything. This is the sort of action he believes Bones would make. Still, the thought sobers him and cuts through the haze of pain enough that he mutters, "Captain James T. Kirk, Captain of the USS Enterprise, NCC-1701".

"Get us out of here," Bones says. "Scotty, now."

The voice cracks as Bones touches his cheek and Jim's resolve to not speak about anything other than his name, rank and ship cracks, as well.

"Don't cut me again, Bones, I love you. Please stop cutting me. It hurts."

"I know, Jim, I know. We're going to get you out of here." For the first time in days, Bones's voice is soft and gentle, mirroring the way that his hand brushes down Jim's cheek and he turns in towards it before remembering that he's undergoing torture.

"Captain James T Kirk, Captain of the USS Enterprise, NCC-1701."

5.) Jim fakes sleep whenever Bones checks on him. He's fairly certain that it had been the real Bones he'd said those three words to. From the stilted conversations before Jim had taken to faking sleep, Bones obviously doesn't reciprocate anything. After a week in medbay, though, he can't fake sleep any longer as Bones is the one currently discharging him to his own quarters.

"Jim," Bones starts as they finish up the paperwork. Jim can see where he's going next and he starts to panic. "About the – "

"Psychotropic drugs," he says baldly. "We done here?"

Bones reaches out a hand, resting it over Jim's where it braces against the bed, ready to help push him off the bed and get him the hell out of this medbay. "If you – "

"Let it go, Bones."

"All right." Bones does, letting go of Jim's hand. Jim slides off the bed and strides towards the door, trying for his normal strut but it's hard when he has muscles knitting and flesh healing. "Jim?"

He pauses at the door and then looks back at Bones. "Yeah?"

"If you meant it, I…" Bones's voice trails off while his hands flop out to the sides and then come back to his hips. "I…"

"The drugs, Bones, the drugs made me tell you that I love you." He can't make eye contact as he lies so, instead, he hurries away.

And that one time) The door to his quarters hisses open and Jim doesn't turn to look. His head is throbbing in time to the throbbing in his thighs and arms and hands and feet. Breathing in, he can smell the antiseptic scent of the medbay and knows that it's Bones. Jim refuses to acknowledge him. Instead, he falls into the habit that's helped for a week, he feigns sleep.

The bed dips as Bones sits on the edge and then shifts around. Jim barely keeps from flinching as Bones rests his hand on his hip.

"I'm not good at this, Jim," he says quietly.

Jim fakes a snore.

"Keep pretending to be asleep, it makes it easier." Bones's hand drifts up his side and then back down, resting once more on his hip. "I'm just going to say it and you can pretend you slept through it if you want."

The pause after goes on for awhile until Jim wonders if Bones is actually going to say something or if he's going to get up and walk away.

"I can't take it when you suffer like that. It hurts. I'm not used to caring, either, and I'm not good at it. I'm old and I'm cranky so I don't see what you see in me or if you really meant what you said but I've…" his voice trails off again but, this time, Jim reaches up a hand and touches Bones's where it's clutching at his hip. Bones threads his fingers through Jim's and then continues, "But I…"

"I meant it," Jim whispers, still refusing to look at Bones. "Never said it to anyone else but I love you."

"I know," Bones says. The bed shifts and suddenly Bones is wrapped around him. "I do, too."

Continued in Trust You, Too.

As always, I'd love to hear what you thought.

[identity profile] missmarie9.livejournal.com 2009-06-17 02:38 pm (UTC)(link)
Awe. Love the awkwardness then the revelation of the truth. Very sweet. Good job.

[identity profile] wook77.livejournal.com 2009-06-22 05:50 am (UTC)(link)
I'm very glad you enjoyed! This was definitely a joy to write so I'm so glad others are enjoying it, as well!

I appreciate your comments! THanks so much!
andrealyn: (st: I'm a doctor and also gorgeous)

[personal profile] andrealyn 2009-06-17 02:46 pm (UTC)(link)
Aww! I love it all, but I have to admit my fondness for number two and how hot that image is. Because nnngh. Lovely piece, as always! ♥

[identity profile] wook77.livejournal.com 2009-06-22 05:51 am (UTC)(link)
I'm very glad you enjoyed! <3 I can totally see the way that Jim looks around at that confession and then finishes it up and hopes for the best. Poor Harrison :(

I appreciate your comments!

[identity profile] drusillas-rain.livejournal.com 2009-06-17 02:51 pm (UTC)(link)
awwww...so sweet :)
And they tortured Jim by making him look like McCoy! *chases after evil torturing aliens* I loved that even back on the ship, he still repeats his name and rank.

[identity profile] wook77.livejournal.com 2009-06-22 05:52 am (UTC)(link)
:( It was the worst thing I could think up, too. Can you just imagine what it would be like? I don't think that's something that's easily gotten over, either.

<3<3<3 (Btw, am I going to see you soon?)

[identity profile] jessofthebugs.livejournal.com 2009-06-17 02:53 pm (UTC)(link)
::Love::

I hope they exploded the bad aliens.

[identity profile] wook77.livejournal.com 2009-06-22 05:53 am (UTC)(link)
They totally and completely did. Spock totally kicked some ass while Bones took care of Jim. (at least, that's how it is in my head :D)

I appreciate that you took the time to read and to let me know what you thought!
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[personal profile] florahart 2009-06-17 02:54 pm (UTC)(link)
Oh! Aw! Yay for old and cranky and he meant it and nasty aliens and aw!

[identity profile] wook77.livejournal.com 2009-06-22 05:54 am (UTC)(link)
Hee! I'm very glad you enjoyed! You summed up my thoughts completely upon getting to the end :D:D:D:D

I appreciate you letting me know what you thought! <3

[identity profile] lisamariedavis.livejournal.com 2009-06-17 02:58 pm (UTC)(link)
That was sweet.

[identity profile] wook77.livejournal.com 2009-06-22 06:02 am (UTC)(link)
I'm glad you enjoyed!

[identity profile] emmagrant01.livejournal.com 2009-06-17 03:03 pm (UTC)(link)
#2: Oh, Jim. You dense little shit, you!

#3: Love me some voyeur!Pike!

#4: Oh, god... Wrenching.

I like the way this turned into a longer story. Lovely work, as always!

[identity profile] wook77.livejournal.com 2009-06-22 06:04 am (UTC)(link)
I'm very glad you enjoyed <3<3<3

This is actually turning into an even longer fic as I try to work out what sort of ramifications there are to the alien torture and I'm writing bits of it out. So we'll see if it ever gets to a postable ideal.

I'm so so so so so glad you're here and you're shipping Kirk/McCoy, too.
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[identity profile] lauriegilbert.livejournal.com 2009-06-17 03:05 pm (UTC)(link)
Awwww, I just want to hug them both!

(Also, I love how many of us are totally on lj in what for me is the middle of the work day, lol!!!)

[identity profile] wook77.livejournal.com 2009-06-22 06:05 am (UTC)(link)
Me too, omg. They're just way too adorable and broken.

And LOL! I posted this right before I went to work and then have been unable to do anything with it until now. Stupid crazy fucking work schedules. I'm so glad I'm back down in hours this week. You cannot believe how stressed I was last week.

<3 (also - my icon of this scene is TOTES better than yours :P)

[identity profile] inell.livejournal.com 2009-06-17 03:10 pm (UTC)(link)
Awwww! I adore them, especially when you write them. ♥

[identity profile] wook77.livejournal.com 2009-06-22 06:06 am (UTC)(link)
<3 I adore them when you write them so we should totally continue the mutual admiration society! They're just way too much fun to play around with, aren't they?

I have your most recent edition open to comment on. Stupid work with killing me and interrupting my fandom. I need to kick it, hardcore.

<3

[identity profile] thistlerose.livejournal.com 2009-06-17 03:11 pm (UTC)(link)
Oh, this is lovely. *sniffle* Boys.

[identity profile] wook77.livejournal.com 2009-06-22 06:06 am (UTC)(link)
<3 They're broken but they get through :D.

<3<3<3

[identity profile] abigail89.livejournal.com 2009-06-17 03:22 pm (UTC)(link)
*hugs* for them both. Daft old boys.

[identity profile] wook77.livejournal.com 2009-06-22 06:07 am (UTC)(link)
They really are fairly daft, aren't they? They should've picked up on it YEARS ago. Silly boys not acting faster.

[identity profile] mrstotten.livejournal.com 2009-06-17 03:28 pm (UTC)(link)
lovely, just lovely

[identity profile] wook77.livejournal.com 2009-06-22 06:07 am (UTC)(link)
I'm very glad you enjoyed!

[identity profile] kira-bouviea.livejournal.com 2009-06-17 03:34 pm (UTC)(link)
Oh gosh, I'm getting all misty-eyed over here. teriffic job!

[identity profile] wook77.livejournal.com 2009-06-22 06:08 am (UTC)(link)
Oh wow! I'm very glad you enjoyed it that much! Thanks so much for letting me know!

[identity profile] simons-flower.livejournal.com 2009-06-17 03:59 pm (UTC)(link)
*shuddery sigh and happy smile*

[identity profile] wook77.livejournal.com 2009-06-22 06:08 am (UTC)(link)
<3 I'm very glad you enjoyed!

[identity profile] elvinborn.livejournal.com 2009-06-17 04:18 pm (UTC)(link)
This is most excellent. It's sweet in places and just generally awesome in others. It feels vaguely wrong that my favorite one is the torture one, but it really was. The idea of using the image/voice/etc of a loved one to torture somebody is kind of awesomely awful. And to have Bones the one that rescues him was just icing. :)

[identity profile] wook77.livejournal.com 2009-06-22 06:09 am (UTC)(link)
The torture one is my fave, too. Just imagining what Jim's going through and, even worse, what Bones is going through just about breaks me. I cannot imagine how crazy it has to be to realize that someone was using YOU to hurt someone you love.

I'm so very glad you enjoyed! I appreciate that you took the time to not only read but to also let me know what you thought. <3

[identity profile] melroseee.livejournal.com 2009-06-17 04:20 pm (UTC)(link)
He doesn't get to see the way that Pike takes it all in, either.

THAT KILLED ME. Actually this whole thing killed me. This is definitely the best '5 Times' fic I've read for Bones and Kirk so far. AMAZING.

[identity profile] wook77.livejournal.com 2009-06-22 06:10 am (UTC)(link)
I'm so very glad you enjoyed! There are lots of brilliant ones out there so I'm truly honored to receive your comments!

[identity profile] snoewhite.livejournal.com 2009-06-17 04:25 pm (UTC)(link)
*is dead* I can see that happening so easily.
good job.
kel

[identity profile] wook77.livejournal.com 2009-06-22 06:10 am (UTC)(link)
I'm so very glad you enjoyed! Thanks for letting me know what you thought!

[identity profile] adafrog.livejournal.com 2009-06-17 04:31 pm (UTC)(link)
Wonderful, and heartbreaking near the end. I adore the image of their hands twined together while they get through that at the end.

[identity profile] wook77.livejournal.com 2009-06-22 06:11 am (UTC)(link)
Thanks so much! That image was the first image I had for the fic so I'm extremely happy that you enjoyed that, especially!

I appreciate you taking the time to not only read but to comment!
the_rainbow_jen: (Default)

[personal profile] the_rainbow_jen 2009-06-17 04:53 pm (UTC)(link)
Oh boys. *fans self* And snuggles! I love it!

[identity profile] wook77.livejournal.com 2009-06-22 06:12 am (UTC)(link)
I'm very glad you did! <3<3<3<3 Hopefully you're feeling better, btw. I'm pants at commenting right now so I just wanted to make an oblique reference and say "feel better!"

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[identity profile] shygryf.livejournal.com 2009-06-17 05:51 pm (UTC)(link)
heee!

i had no idea how much i was into this pairing until you started writing it.

[identity profile] wook77.livejournal.com 2009-06-22 06:13 am (UTC)(link)
LOLOLOL I am the evil converter. Just ask [livejournal.com profile] elanorofcastile. I keep dragging her into shit that she had no intention of shipping until I spammed the fuck out of her.

<3

[identity profile] kalldoro.livejournal.com 2009-06-17 06:02 pm (UTC)(link)
So sweet! I love how awkward Kirk gets there in the end and Bones's gentleness. I love it when people write Bones as gentle because I'm sure that deep down he really is. :)

[identity profile] wook77.livejournal.com 2009-06-22 06:14 am (UTC)(link)
Oh man, me too. I can totally see Bones being super gentle under that gruff exterior but being so afraid to show it because, dude, getting divorced had to kick him in the teeth.

I appreciate your comments! <3 I'm so glad to get to know you!

[identity profile] wickedground.livejournal.com 2009-06-17 06:05 pm (UTC)(link)
aww the awkwardness at the end between them was rather endearing ♥

[identity profile] wook77.livejournal.com 2009-06-22 06:15 am (UTC)(link)
Thanks! I can't see either of them being all that suave and sophisticated in that sort of scenario so I'm glad it read as believable to you! Then again, I don't see Bones as any sort of "ladies man" at all so I figure he'd totes be awkward no matter what sort of scenario it is.

Also - I'm beyond fascinated by your icon. It's absolutely awesome.
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[identity profile] dizilla.livejournal.com 2009-06-17 06:09 pm (UTC)(link)
Hahha, I love your bones... XD I have a soft spot for Jim being tortured by aliens made to look like his loved ones..There needs to be more of those I say. XD I just loved that he kept thinking it was an alien and not his Bones rescuing him and how he runs and then Bones finally catches up and says what he's been wanting to here. Nicely done! ^_^

[identity profile] wook77.livejournal.com 2009-06-22 06:17 am (UTC)(link)
Kirk is nothing if not amazingly suave in those sorts of scenarios. Harrison totes bought it because it was coming out of Kirk's mouth :D.

There definitely needs to be more of it. I can just see the progression between the way that they choose who does what. Like - it starts with Frank and Kirk can sort of buy that until they make it into his mum and then, once they try out Bones, all bets are off on buying the torture thing.

I'm very glad you enjoyed this! <3

[identity profile] exiled-mind.livejournal.com 2009-06-17 07:08 pm (UTC)(link)
*sniffle*

I am such a sucker for these two...

[identity profile] wook77.livejournal.com 2009-06-22 06:18 am (UTC)(link)
I am, too, so *buffs nails*, you're in excellent company ;)

But seriously, I'm very glad that you took the time to read and comment! I appreciate it liekwhoa!

[identity profile] emiime.livejournal.com 2009-06-17 07:14 pm (UTC)(link)
You had me at "I love your bones".

[identity profile] wook77.livejournal.com 2009-06-22 06:19 am (UTC)(link)
LOLOLOL! Should I ever meet you IRL, I shall know what line to use on you ;)

Are you going to [livejournal.com profile] akzatraz, btw?

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